rajy's journal ♥

mood: cold

music: taste of ink - the used

Saturday. Worked 8 to 4. And it was good. We had the same shift. Of course it was good. There’s this girl that works there, and I think there’s something mentally wrong with her. But that doesn’t give her an excuse to be so annoying. So she was at the register in between us. Fun hearing all her wacky stories alllllll day. She’s 21 but def. does not look/act it. She’s from Everett and proud of it. She calls it the “Dirrrrrtyy E!” Lol, I hate it when it’s called that. At least we have something to make fun of all day.

She told me this one story: I don’t want to explain it. All I’ll say is gay guy, bengay, “it burned all night”. Yea, so I was like, “Go tell Dave!” He came over a minute later and was like poking and elbowing me saying wtf. Lol.

Then we had a whole conversation about senior skip day. Leanna, the creepy girl, told us about hers. Went to the library and took a nap, went to porter square and rode the escalators with my friends. The way she said it, and the way she was proud of it was--you had to be there. We laughed for a good 7 minutes. (Yea I counted.)

Next came alcohol. They were arguing who has gotten drunk more often. He was proud that he’s underage and has been drunk more times that she has. That’s like everyone at ehs, or should I say, “in the dirrrtttyyy e!” Then came the talk about Black&Mild. I don’t know what they are, all I know is that you smoke them, you need id to buy them, they come in three flavors. He was explaining what it felt like to smoke one. That was a disappointment. He comes in every morning, “I was out til 3 last night. I’m so hung-over!” I hate that. Yea go get drunk, be hung-over, go get high and whatever but I hate it that he’s proud of it. GRR.

Next topic was money. Leanna was saying that she was broke because she spent all her money on cigarettes and alcohol. Dave says, “After Christmas, I’m so broke! And now Valentines day!” Ok so, the only people who go broke on Valentines Day are people that have others to spend it with. So I said, “broke on Valentine’s day? What do you do?” And he got a customer. Daaaammmmnnn. Lol. I wanted to know. Yea it doesn’t really effect me if he has a girlfriend or not, but still it would suck. So we never got back to that.

Laterrr he was telling me why he took Friday off. He went to a emi. Yea he doesn’t have a girlfriend. Because he said he wanted to go but needed someone to go with. So he wen with that girl because he knew he could ditch her afterwards. Lol. He’s an ass.

So at 3:45 we signed off. We had 15 minutes left but we left anyway. We went downstairs to get our stuff, but hadn’t punched out yet. This is like the worst possible thing you could do at cvs. They’ll fire you just for that. So we’re downstairs and we hear, over the intercom, “Cashier to the front. Cashier to the front.” And I was getting nervous because one of the supervisors would find out that we were leaving early since there’s no cashiers. A couple minutes later, “Backup to the front!” Lol, oops. So we went back upstairs and walked around the store, not letting anyone see us. So there were supervisors all over the place. So we took a walk outside. Lol, came back in a minute before 4, punched out, and left. I’m def. going to get fired.

mood: tired

music: britney spears-cinderella

Tuesday.


I was excited for Tuesday because my whole CVS gang was going to be there. They call me at 7:30, half hour before I was supposed to get there, and told me that I was switched to 12-9. That's the worst shift, and everyone knows it. I was wicked mad because all 4 of us were supposed to have the same 8-4 shift. So I went back to sleep. Drove to work at 11. And of course everyone's already there, without me. I punch in right in between Dave and Kay (YAY!). Took one sip of my hot chocolate, and I was exciiitttteeeeddd. It was completely dead. Abs. no customer. So the three of us were laughing, joking, and just chillen. Tehy were making fun of me becuase they were out in 4 hours, and I'm out in 9. But I kind of liked it coming from Dave. Lol. So 20 minutes and 0 customers later, the manager tells me t close up and puts me in Cosmetics. It was the day after Christmas, so there was some major reconstructing going on. All new displays. I had to set up the displays, doesn't sound so bad, but it was hell. You have to open the giant heavy boxes, open all the little lip gloss, nail polish, foundation, eye liner<3, mascara. Price check all individually. Then stamp every single one. HELL. My cuticles were bleeding. It was horrible.

A little before four, the one who was directing us went on break so the rest of us were sent to cashier agian. There were no customers in the entire store soo we hung around. I was complaining wicked bad becuase I was exhausted. Kristin, supervisor, told one of us to do returns. Dave and Kay yell, "RAJDEEEEP!" And I couldn't say no becuase she's supervisor. I really couldn't do them though. I walked around the store a bit, painfully, and just put the crap anywhere.

Ok, long story short. I got him in soooo much trouble. I accidently told supervisor Tina that he just puts crap anywhere becuase he doesn't know where they go. She was pissed. So was he. So he hit me with his "NEXT REGISTER PLEASE" sign. And his shoe. That I didn't enjoy. I felt wicckkked bad though. I suck at life. Majorly.



Saturday.

I forgot to punch out today. Oooooopppps. As of right now I'm still punched in. They let me go home at 12:30. THANK GOD. Yea, I was with my "crew" but it was a sucky day. Saw Happy Feet last night. Half of it. Fell asleep during the last half. I was that tired. Good movie though. Mexican penguins.

mood: sleepy

music: i wanna love you-akon

I should be alseep right now, it's 1:30, but I'm a dork and had to update.

Had work yesterday. Honestly, I loved it. My tiiiiiny little crush has accelerated. And we're both woking together tomorrow. And I can't wait.


So today was Christmas, and I actually got stuff! First year taht we actualy kind of celebrated Christmas. My cousins from Avon came over, and there's 13 of them. Chaotic. But somehow, at then end of the night, we all end up in 1 room. One of my cousins is flipping hilarious. I abs. love him. <333333 We all had a blast.


After they left, around 12, we opened gifts. My dad, unexpectedly, got us all something. The 3 of us, got $100, and Mom & Grandma got $51. ($1 is alwyas given extra. it's for good luck. that's how us indians doooo). Swear to god, that is the most he's ever spent on us. Ever. Felt bad taking it because I really don't like him. Whatev. And then my sister, gives me my stuff. Yea, I knew I was getting the wristlet, and I was wicked excited. That was enough for me, but I got something else, too. She got me a Coach iPod case! I love it. I'm not even a big Coach freak, but I love both.


I have work in 5 hours. Ugh. I'm excited because of the people that i'll be working with. But I'm forgetting about the actual work aspect of it. And the getting up at 6:30. And the looong hours. And that disgusting baby blue CVS shirt. But my 2 out of my 3 friends (wow, 3!) will be there, lol, so it'll be good.


Call me during break somewhere between 10-11, or 12-1.

mood: why am i still up !?

music: i wanna love you - akon

The best day of work, by far. So there wasn't one person over the age of 18 today. Thank the Lord. Lol. So there was the one kid, and he made fun of customers alllll day. He's wicked talkative, he'll talk to anyone. I talked to him more today than I have ever talked with anyone at CVS. He's newer than I am, so we're clueless together =] He's wicked funny. They sent me down to Pharmacy. NEVER AGAIN. People are soo mean! Some other girl took over for me, so I went back down to my normal station. I come back, and he was like, "Tina (supervisor), said you were wicked nervous over there, so they switched you. Haha!" i told him how the customer so mean over there. and as he was taking a customer he says, "Yea, CAUSE THEY'RE ALL OOOLLLDDD-" He suddenly stops. His customer was an old lady, and he's standing they're basically dissing her. It was wiiccckkkeeed funny. You HAD to be there. The way it all happened, and how he said it. LOL.

He was at the register with the phone, and hated picking it up. Everyone was asking weird questions. He put one lady on hold and asked me, "Hey, get this. She wants to know if we sell manual breast pumps. i know we don't, but let's go ask Ed! It'll freak him out." And then we had our countdown until 4. (We both were getting out at 4) He started it at 4 hours and 9 minutes. Fun stuff. He offered me a ride home, but I DEFINITELY don't know him well enough for that. Who knows he may be a rapist. well in that case, STABLER<3 would come to the rescue.


Overall, good day. Actually, excited for work tomorrow. But, I'm working 8-4 and he's working 10-3. It'll be fuuunnnn.




I just read this over .. No, I don't like him.

I don't get it. Everything's just fine and overnight BOOM I'm never talking to her again. I didn't even like him that much but it annoys me greatly. It would bother me no matter who it was. Cause then I, Ms. Negative, feel like there's something wrong with me. Tuesday everything was just super. Didn't see him Wednesday. Thursday he totally ignored me. A whole week of this. I knew this was going happen, too. I'm such an ass.



On a much brighter note, i'm learning how to play the drums. I'm in a band! And if we're good enough by then, we're entering the talent show. We've got everything we need. All the instruments. Band members. A cool name. And talent, of course. We're going to be practicing on weekends hopefully. I'm so excited. No one pays attention to the drummer. No one blames a bad performance on the poor drummer. Perfect.



where did I go wrong, I lost a friend,
somewhere along in the bitterness and
I would have stayed up with you all night
had I known how to save a life.
<3333

mood: blah

music: in the cold-acceptance

I've been so stressed out lately. Stressed about everything possible: college, friends, work, music, my bedroom radiator, my ipod, health, christmas, birthday, my parents, mike ela, italian class, my wardrobe, my lack of self-confidence, yearbook & graduation, and 'a certain someone'.



( we're still so young desperate for attention )




A horrible day.
& an even worse journal entry to top it off.

mood: "i'm that much of a loser?"

music: this conversation is over-acceptance

I'm exhausted. I've been up and runnin since 7am. It's 10:30 and my day's finally over. Dead tired. So school was okay besides, "Aww, why didn't you dress up?!" Jesus, because I'm me and I don't want unnecessary attention. I'd be too worried about how dumb I look anyway.


So I was turning the corner and almost crashed into someone. Scared the shit out of me, ecspecially because they went, "RAJDEEEP!!!" And we all now by now who always says that. Yup. My day pretty much stunk aside from those 2 second pathetic moments I had with him. & Of course you'll hear about allll four. 8) (If you don't want to know or just don't care stop reading from this point on.)

1. We were walking, and just happened to be by his locker, and he says, "RAJDEEEEP!" and hit my shoulder/arm.
2. The hallway thing mentioned above.
3. So I'm walking after fifth period, and he's halfway down the hall, and he was talking to someone. I definitely heard him say my name. And so he goes, "Rajdeep, hi-five!" Oh, I hi-fived him. Next thing you hear him say, "OWWWWW, MY ELBOW!". Yes, I, Rajdeep NMN Kaur, can't even give a proper hi-five. Lol. So I guess he won't be asking for anymore of those unless he has elbow pads on.
4. He said hi after school and I held the door open for him.



Yea, I feel like an idiot. He does this to everyone he knows. I feel like an ass for making it seem like more than it really is. It's absolutely nothing. I'm way too tired to type anymore. All I can hear right now is the little cash register ding.

mood: calm

music: the letter-acceptance

I was having a terrible morning. I changed my outfit 7 1/2 times. I hate days when I have abs. nothing to wear. Gay part is I ended up wearing the first thing I had on. So my pants were unhemmed, and I got them about a week ago but hadn't gotten the chance to get them fixed. I wore them anyway. Bad idea. It was raining. They were way too long. About 5 inches too much. & I left my house at 7:43. Not good.


(For the short version, skip to the bold.) I walk past the Ferry/Broadway intersection and am a little past that brazilian hair place where expressions used to be. I had to stop to fix those pants. I was pissed. Morning was not going well. And, to top it off, I got my hair trimmed yesteday, and they trimmed it too short. My bangs are too short and I abs. hate them. The shorter the hair, the more it frizzes. So it's raining and my hair is the frizziest it has ever been. So, I fix my pants and start walking again. I'm listening to my iPod (acceptance<3) and I hear someone's voice. At this point I was having a horrible morning that every little thing would piss me off. I'm thinking to myself, "Jeeeez, how loud are you that I can hear you through my ipod?! GRRRR!" I turn around and it's you know who. Yea. Apparently he was saying, "RAJDEEEEEP. Good morning!" So we talk for about 2 minutes. Then for the rest of the way neither of us said anything. 9 minutes of just buses, cars, rain, and acceptance<3. I tried to ask him who won the playoff game last night and he goes, "Huh? What? oh, soccer?" Lol. I listened to my music, he listened to the radio, and we walked merrily down the street.



The rest of my day was blahh. Me, Jackie, and Scuzz did some madddd reminiscing. Eigth grade was awesome. That was the year before everything turned sour. Had a best friend, didn't care what people thought of me, no mike, no drama, tons of self-confidence. I always have the best conversations with Jackie. And, Dr.Boy's out for the year. They're looking for a new teacher for physics. There goes my A+. Hope he's okay though; he was a nice guy. Boring, but nice.



Work tomorrow. Ugh. HATE IT. Shoot me in the facciiioooo. Jeffffy won Project Runway. Love him, but I liked Uli's too. Hated Laura's. The Mets are out =(. I love my new ringtones: Justin, Panic!, Acceptance, The Used, Law&Order. Too bad no one calls me. Call just so I can hear it ring. =]

mood: okay

music: los Angeles-sugarcult

Today wasn't so bad. You know what I hate though, I hate that I don't see him at all. Not entirely true: Last week I saw the back of his head, and today I saw his foot. I have no idea what classes he takes or even which way he goes, so I can't even change my route. Lol. Last week was horrible, I hated school. It's not so bad. I was just having a bad week. I wish I hadn't gone on and on in my last entry. So I got lost today. I couldn't find 122 for the life of me. & I've been there before, I know where it is. I had to ask Mr. Nuzzolo and he was like, 'wow, you're a senior?'. Me and Zlatan watched Family Guy in our study. I had some stuff to do so he satrted listening to whatever. So he gives me my iPod back and I turn it on to see what he would listen to on my iPod. The Backstreet Boys? He was listening to Bat Country<33333 by Avenged Sevenfold. You'd never think that this genious would listen to Hard Rock. Apparently, he loves it. Speaking of music, Sugarcult's new songs is perfect. It's called Los Angeles, and iTunes has it as the Single Of The Week. It's one of their best songs. I would put it as my background music but I just changed it. It's currently My Love by Justin. Even though Backstreet is my everything, I looove Justin. I'm stopping now, becasue if I don't I'll go on for hours.

Basically: School's okay now but I don't see him at all :( And listen to/download Los Angeles By Sugarcult.