rajy's journal ♥

mood: headache

music: afraid - yellowcard

i want this bag in black. A LOT. It's by Balenciaga and $1800. This picture doesn't do it justice. You just have to see it. If I had stayed at CVS it would be mine by now. I want a job.

mood: cold

music: taste of ink - the used

Saturday. Worked 8 to 4. And it was good. We had the same shift. Of course it was good. There’s this girl that works there, and I think there’s something mentally wrong with her. But that doesn’t give her an excuse to be so annoying. So she was at the register in between us. Fun hearing all her wacky stories alllllll day. She’s 21 but def. does not look/act it. She’s from Everett and proud of it. She calls it the “Dirrrrrtyy E!” Lol, I hate it when it’s called that. At least we have something to make fun of all day.

She told me this one story: I don’t want to explain it. All I’ll say is gay guy, bengay, “it burned all night”. Yea, so I was like, “Go tell Dave!” He came over a minute later and was like poking and elbowing me saying wtf. Lol.

Then we had a whole conversation about senior skip day. Leanna, the creepy girl, told us about hers. Went to the library and took a nap, went to porter square and rode the escalators with my friends. The way she said it, and the way she was proud of it was--you had to be there. We laughed for a good 7 minutes. (Yea I counted.)

Next came alcohol. They were arguing who has gotten drunk more often. He was proud that he’s underage and has been drunk more times that she has. That’s like everyone at ehs, or should I say, “in the dirrrtttyyy e!” Then came the talk about Black&Mild. I don’t know what they are, all I know is that you smoke them, you need id to buy them, they come in three flavors. He was explaining what it felt like to smoke one. That was a disappointment. He comes in every morning, “I was out til 3 last night. I’m so hung-over!” I hate that. Yea go get drunk, be hung-over, go get high and whatever but I hate it that he’s proud of it. GRR.

Next topic was money. Leanna was saying that she was broke because she spent all her money on cigarettes and alcohol. Dave says, “After Christmas, I’m so broke! And now Valentines day!” Ok so, the only people who go broke on Valentines Day are people that have others to spend it with. So I said, “broke on Valentine’s day? What do you do?” And he got a customer. Daaaammmmnnn. Lol. I wanted to know. Yea it doesn’t really effect me if he has a girlfriend or not, but still it would suck. So we never got back to that.

Laterrr he was telling me why he took Friday off. He went to a emi. Yea he doesn’t have a girlfriend. Because he said he wanted to go but needed someone to go with. So he wen with that girl because he knew he could ditch her afterwards. Lol. He’s an ass.

So at 3:45 we signed off. We had 15 minutes left but we left anyway. We went downstairs to get our stuff, but hadn’t punched out yet. This is like the worst possible thing you could do at cvs. They’ll fire you just for that. So we’re downstairs and we hear, over the intercom, “Cashier to the front. Cashier to the front.” And I was getting nervous because one of the supervisors would find out that we were leaving early since there’s no cashiers. A couple minutes later, “Backup to the front!” Lol, oops. So we went back upstairs and walked around the store, not letting anyone see us. So there were supervisors all over the place. So we took a walk outside. Lol, came back in a minute before 4, punched out, and left. I’m def. going to get fired.

mood: busyy

music: scottty doesn't know !

Thursday
Went out with Natasha and Duyen. So much fun. End of story.

Friday
Not much. Got really sick. Took some NyQuil, went to bed.

Saturday
Work! 12-9. Got up around 10. Got ready. Then spent the rest of my day at CVS. Lots of "fun" customers. So many people were pissed. Wrote a gazzillion rainchecks. Gave back refunds that I weren't supposed to. Sold stuff for less that I wasn't supposed to either.
Speaking of "fun" customers, guess who came in? You never will, so I'll just tell you. MS.AYOUB! I was helping a customer on the floor, and since it was wicked busy, I had to get back to my register. On the way back, someone in line says, "Hi, how are you?!" I sort of ignored them, becuase I was in such a hurry. I did manage to mumble, "Good. And you?" I look back to see who it was. It was Ayoub. Ickk. I didn't take her, Dave did. (who was a freakin mile away. He was on register 1, and I was on 14. Grr.) So after the rush, he was saying how creepy one of his custoomers were. I explained ayoub and how she's all wacky. And he says something like, "That lady, or whatever she is, was nasty. That can not be a teacher. Eww, I thought she was one of those homeless people who scrounge up just enough money to buy a newspaper and cigarettes!" You'll never guess what she bought. The Boston Globe. Ricola cough drops. Vagisil. EW. EW. EWW. EWWW. EWWWWWW. EWWWWWWWWWW. He hair was puffier and frizzier, if you can believe it could have gotten worse. It was grayish up until her ears. She looked like she had just crawled out of bed.

It did make my day though. It was funny. It was GREAT seeing her again! And it gave Me and Dave something to talk about. At 4:00, he says, "Hey you want a ride home. Oh wait that's right. You're not leaving until NINE! Ha ha. I've gotta go watch the football game. Have fun with Tim, and Barbara alllll niight." I don't think he's cute like at all, but it's wicked cute when he says that.

Sunday
My brother had a sleepover. Shoot me in the face. I hate Andrew. He smells. He smokes weed. He's wicked loud. But he's grounded, so he couldn't stay. Thank God.

Monday
Watched the Wedding Crashers at 2am, so I woke up late. Had breakfast/lunch. My brother's crew left for movie or a buffet, or whatever. I'm just glad their gone. And I have tooooonnnnns of homework.

mood: tired

music: britney spears-cinderella

Tuesday.


I was excited for Tuesday because my whole CVS gang was going to be there. They call me at 7:30, half hour before I was supposed to get there, and told me that I was switched to 12-9. That's the worst shift, and everyone knows it. I was wicked mad because all 4 of us were supposed to have the same 8-4 shift. So I went back to sleep. Drove to work at 11. And of course everyone's already there, without me. I punch in right in between Dave and Kay (YAY!). Took one sip of my hot chocolate, and I was exciiitttteeeeddd. It was completely dead. Abs. no customer. So the three of us were laughing, joking, and just chillen. Tehy were making fun of me becuase they were out in 4 hours, and I'm out in 9. But I kind of liked it coming from Dave. Lol. So 20 minutes and 0 customers later, the manager tells me t close up and puts me in Cosmetics. It was the day after Christmas, so there was some major reconstructing going on. All new displays. I had to set up the displays, doesn't sound so bad, but it was hell. You have to open the giant heavy boxes, open all the little lip gloss, nail polish, foundation, eye liner<3, mascara. Price check all individually. Then stamp every single one. HELL. My cuticles were bleeding. It was horrible.

A little before four, the one who was directing us went on break so the rest of us were sent to cashier agian. There were no customers in the entire store soo we hung around. I was complaining wicked bad becuase I was exhausted. Kristin, supervisor, told one of us to do returns. Dave and Kay yell, "RAJDEEEEP!" And I couldn't say no becuase she's supervisor. I really couldn't do them though. I walked around the store a bit, painfully, and just put the crap anywhere.

Ok, long story short. I got him in soooo much trouble. I accidently told supervisor Tina that he just puts crap anywhere becuase he doesn't know where they go. She was pissed. So was he. So he hit me with his "NEXT REGISTER PLEASE" sign. And his shoe. That I didn't enjoy. I felt wicckkked bad though. I suck at life. Majorly.



Saturday.

I forgot to punch out today. Oooooopppps. As of right now I'm still punched in. They let me go home at 12:30. THANK GOD. Yea, I was with my "crew" but it was a sucky day. Saw Happy Feet last night. Half of it. Fell asleep during the last half. I was that tired. Good movie though. Mexican penguins.

mood: sleepy

music: i wanna love you-akon

I should be alseep right now, it's 1:30, but I'm a dork and had to update.

Had work yesterday. Honestly, I loved it. My tiiiiiny little crush has accelerated. And we're both woking together tomorrow. And I can't wait.


So today was Christmas, and I actually got stuff! First year taht we actualy kind of celebrated Christmas. My cousins from Avon came over, and there's 13 of them. Chaotic. But somehow, at then end of the night, we all end up in 1 room. One of my cousins is flipping hilarious. I abs. love him. <333333 We all had a blast.


After they left, around 12, we opened gifts. My dad, unexpectedly, got us all something. The 3 of us, got $100, and Mom & Grandma got $51. ($1 is alwyas given extra. it's for good luck. that's how us indians doooo). Swear to god, that is the most he's ever spent on us. Ever. Felt bad taking it because I really don't like him. Whatev. And then my sister, gives me my stuff. Yea, I knew I was getting the wristlet, and I was wicked excited. That was enough for me, but I got something else, too. She got me a Coach iPod case! I love it. I'm not even a big Coach freak, but I love both.


I have work in 5 hours. Ugh. I'm excited because of the people that i'll be working with. But I'm forgetting about the actual work aspect of it. And the getting up at 6:30. And the looong hours. And that disgusting baby blue CVS shirt. But my 2 out of my 3 friends (wow, 3!) will be there, lol, so it'll be good.


Call me during break somewhere between 10-11, or 12-1.

What a week.

Monday and Tuesday was a blurrr. But Wednesday was wicked long. Thurday, Thanksgiving/Birthday, was like any other day. Friday work. Saturday work. Sunday mall.


Wednesday Scuzzzz said the weirdest thing about me. And I don't know if he was serious or not. But I'm wicked paranoid so now I'm all worried about it. He said that first I'm an emo kid. Second, I'm a preppy. So then he combines it into a emo kid/prep. I'm neither right? Where is he getting this from. If he's thinking that, then who else is? Anyways, I got home and was supposed to go out but ended up falling asleep.

Thursday. We were supposed to go to my Aunts house in Avon, but it was rainy. So my parents said we'll chill at home. BORING. No one got me anything, but what's new.

Friday. Work wasn't so bad. The new people they hired like last week are cool. Rented Constantine and Syriana.

Saturday I was supposed to work 8-4, but someone switched with me. I work 12-9. I loved it. I did customer service, because tehy didn't have enough registers. That's the easiest thing on the planet. You walk around asking people if they need help. Or, you don't. You walk around and look at all the cool Christmas stuff. The people at night are so much more fun. Bob<3! Rented movies. Watched Shrek 2, because they didn't have Ice Age.

Sunday. CHRISTMAS TREE! Bought it, and then set it up. It's not fully decorated but it's up and running. You should come see it. Oh wait, I'll just take a picture. Be right back .. MY TREE.


I have to do 4 essays by Wednesday. And I have to take my pictures Tuesday. I havn't started anything for college. I have nothing. I have to do my college essay, too. Recommendations? NONE. Not looking forward to this week at all.

mood: frustrated

music: the unloved - bsb

Today was my worst day at CVS.



The people I work with think they're better than everyone else just because they've been there longer. When you ask for help, because you reeeaaaalllly need it, they flip out on you.


Oh, break was fun. At 9:30 I was outside. It's 20 degrees. All I have is my CVS shirt. I'm talking to mom who's at home drinking hot chocolate. That was my 15. My half hour break, was a lot better. I cried. Yea, and not like a tear or two. I cried. I hate it so much. I knew I wouldn't be able to work in a place where it's all about people. I take everything personal. The managers/supervisors don't talk to anyone except for the older ones that have been there for a while. To everyone else, they're bitchy. You ask them to give you change becasue you ahve nothing in your drawer, and they flip.


It's HORRIBLE when you screw up. I screwed up today. Freakin CVS and their freakin CVS card "if you buy..then, then..this" or "when this..., then you get..this" sales. Actually it's not even that. All throughout my 8 hours, no one called the supervisor except for me. It's all me. I am the stupidest person that ever hit retail.


People try to save "oh i gave you a 50!" And I'm so doubtful of myself, and I believe them. And I can't talk back to them either. Not because I'm not allowed to, just becasue I'm not able to.



I'm working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. CVS is going bankrupt.

mood: blah

music: in the cold-acceptance

I've been so stressed out lately. Stressed about everything possible: college, friends, work, music, my bedroom radiator, my ipod, health, christmas, birthday, my parents, mike ela, italian class, my wardrobe, my lack of self-confidence, yearbook & graduation, and 'a certain someone'.



( we're still so young desperate for attention )




A horrible day.
& an even worse journal entry to top it off.

mood: "i'm that much of a loser?"

music: this conversation is over-acceptance

I'm exhausted. I've been up and runnin since 7am. It's 10:30 and my day's finally over. Dead tired. So school was okay besides, "Aww, why didn't you dress up?!" Jesus, because I'm me and I don't want unnecessary attention. I'd be too worried about how dumb I look anyway.


So I was turning the corner and almost crashed into someone. Scared the shit out of me, ecspecially because they went, "RAJDEEEP!!!" And we all now by now who always says that. Yup. My day pretty much stunk aside from those 2 second pathetic moments I had with him. & Of course you'll hear about allll four. 8) (If you don't want to know or just don't care stop reading from this point on.)

1. We were walking, and just happened to be by his locker, and he says, "RAJDEEEEP!" and hit my shoulder/arm.
2. The hallway thing mentioned above.
3. So I'm walking after fifth period, and he's halfway down the hall, and he was talking to someone. I definitely heard him say my name. And so he goes, "Rajdeep, hi-five!" Oh, I hi-fived him. Next thing you hear him say, "OWWWWW, MY ELBOW!". Yes, I, Rajdeep NMN Kaur, can't even give a proper hi-five. Lol. So I guess he won't be asking for anymore of those unless he has elbow pads on.
4. He said hi after school and I held the door open for him.



Yea, I feel like an idiot. He does this to everyone he knows. I feel like an ass for making it seem like more than it really is. It's absolutely nothing. I'm way too tired to type anymore. All I can hear right now is the little cash register ding.